I'm sorry for being such a horrible friend to you these couple of years that we've known each other. I'm sorry for never being there for you like you have been for me. I'm sorry for being apathetic when you were crying. I'm sorry for always making you feel crappy for little stuff. I'm sorry for criticizing you. I'm sorry for every little thing I've ever done to make you feel like you needed to end this friendship. It feels like I need you in my life just to make it through each day. And when we're not speaking, it tears me apart to the point where I'm physically sick.
You've comforted me when we've both been going through pain, yet I didn't bother to comfort you back. You've reprimanded me whenever I did something stupid. I understand if you don't want to hear me out, or patch up things, or even talk to me. But just know this: I love you. And I always have. You'll still be the driving force in my life.
I know that whenever I'm about to do something I'm going to regret, I'll hear your sweet voice in my head and know that whatever I'm doing, I need to stop. And I know that I'll never forget these last couple of years that have matured me and molded me into a better person. But I still have work to do. I've told you time and
time again that I'll change. And you'd be skeptical, but you'd stick in there with me. Now I realize I should have never put you through so much.
The best thing for me to do right now is sort out my priorities. I know you come WAY before guys. But I also need to figure out how to keep you and them on balance. Probably even tip the scale a bit in your
favor. You don't have to believe me. What matters is that I change... to become a better friend and to never, EVER make you cry again. To always be there to make you smile and to be the one that you want to be
around.
And hopefully one day I'll be able to show you the kind of friendship you've shown me.
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